Looking at the time... its 7.50. Nothing special though. But theres tis unsettled feeling inside me right now. Its tat kind of topsy-turvy which keeps on revolving, thus urging me to do my rant out here.
A letter was sent frm TP few days back. Well, its abt the aerospace thingy n its addressed to my parents. Surprisingly, tis unimpt piece of letter is the source of my emo-ness. Ok, i dont mean to brag here, still, the fact tat tis course is something tat so many others dreamt of, is an undenialble truth. Thanks to my luck tat im being chosen, the least i would say.
But wat good is it, when u dont get tat kind of appraisal or pat on back which u deserved??? Tat letter had been left on the table for god damn days, but ironically, its just turn out to a paper for rough uses. Lolx. I dun even noe whether i shld be laughin or cryin.... The value of tis info is even nth compared to those monthly-sent frm singtel.... wat a shame... haha.....
Maybe ive been watching too much drama. i dont noe. But since young, tat jealousy is so strong whenever i saw other kids being praised for things tat they have done well. To me, the kind of appraisal dun have to be a gift or even monetary wise. Just something as simple as "Well done, my boy" or things like tat would have really really melt my heart.
Maybe u'll say : u can share tis piece of news with ur frens ma. Okay, true enough. But u noe, the joy just cant be compared to those with ur family ( i guess so, cos i've nvr felt tat b4). Unsurprisingly, i've nvr felt regretful or pitiful cos i noe these things have been destined le ba. So, whenver i feel unfair or unregconized, i always imagine tat someday, i will shine! haha... Ya... someday.. Though i dun really noe when, but, it will!!! Im sure.
Anw, theres something i wanna let anyone tats reading tis blog to noe. The aim of my blog just a place for me to pour out the rage in me, not to gain the sympathy of anybody. The reason im not sharing it during meet-outs is i dun bear to let my own fucking problems spoil the mood of everyone.
i love you,,
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