Life's really damn unexpected. Its just too sudden for me accept the fact that guan rui's dad parted this world yesterday. When i recieved the news, my heart really dropped. I cant imagine that person whom i saw a few days ago, sitting at the coffeeshop and watching tv, is just gone like that. That kind of feeling is really indescribable. I think most of us must have felt this too.
Whenever a friend's relative pass away, i can always recall the day that my dearest grandmother left this world. Because it happen on last day of my o level paper and its also the first time i really cried. She's really the one who treated me so well when she was alive. She would bias towards me, and my angbao during the new year is definitely the biggest amoung all my cousins. But its a sad thing that such a wonderful person left this world, in the hospital.... in pain. And how can i ever forget the drama which my uncles and aunties starred in during the wake. Fighting over the tiny-winy bit of money that she left behind?!?! WTF. You people are her very own sons and daughters sia. Is that how the elders should behave in front of all the nephews n nieces? I guess my grandmother's tears must have flooded her coffin. Her mind must be thinking that she shouldn't even leave the money for us ba. I just cant hold my inevitable tears during the rituals and even before the lifting of the coffin. Every word or song which the toaists sung, its just so heart piercing and my heart is throbbing with pain. Once again, my tears rolled down. This story sounds dramatic?? Its true damn fucking true man~ Even i also cant believe it.....
Btw, o level results out today. Overheard that Rai's bf didn't do quite well. Hmmm, wat i can say is dun worry man! Theres always a second chance. I fail my o levels too n i didn't even go for a retake. Maybe ITE is not a bad choice after all. I made my way from there too! So, to all ppl who didn't do well, dun despair dude!! =)
Out to guan's dad wake-
i love you,,
7:49 PM
