Went for my favourite sport's trainning on friday nite. Its been almost 3 yrs since i picked up tis sport. I can still recall the intense trainning n atmosphere at
HillTop, where u actually feel the adrenaline rush when being trained by Master Johnny. Though friday's trainning is much more relaxed compared to hilltop's wan, but the one yr gap realli proved too great for me. Trained with Ah Heng, Kenny (Terry's bro) n a few others tat day, n watched Heng's friendly spar with the other guy. Wat i can say is, tat guy is really too easy for Heng le ba. He was capitalised totally. Well, i had mine with Kenny. But i really lost my basic moves n touches. I guess i wasn't up to his match yet ba.
After trainning, i tot i could have a good rest b4 i go for my work the next morning, but b4 i realise, i had my Round 2 already! Woken up by mum at 0745. The reason? All because of the steering wheel n seat belt cover tat i didnt take back!?!? But wat really upsets me is the attitude u ppl treat me. Nw, in mum's eyes, im labelled "
not repented", "
ungrateful", "
not understanding" all these shit. Do u know hw heartbreaking it is when u r actually woken up frm slp by these words? Its definitely hurts more than being kicked n punched.
im
Lazy bcos i left out tat 2 accessories? im
Not Understanding bcos i didnt apologize? im
Not Repented becos i dun seem to know i have made a heavenly mistake? But hw u ppl noe i've nvr tried when i've already done all i can?
Then hw abt the time when i cant get into poly? I wanted to look my 'mp' to write a letter of recommendation but u ppl tell me not to throw the family's face by using such methods. Then hw abt the time i wanted to sign on for Navy to sponsor the diploma? U ppl said tat i will surely fail my studies and have to suffer the consequences bcos of me. At those times, did u ppl give me support when i needed them?
The car's gone, but u have gotten a new wan. But i lost these opportunities n they wont come back.
Yes, im tinking very negatively. This is the way im brought up.
i love you,,
10:09 PM
