She's the One

2009-03-29T14:57:00.003+08:00

Wonderful Sunday!! ((: Clear sky, glaring sun, blazing heat. I just feel like riding out n do some "sun-tanning" neh!! HAHAHA. Nah~~ im jus too lazy at the moment. LOLX.

Yesterday's work was just so simple, easy, relax and with such gd weather.... Simply fantastic!!! *Thumbz up* Somehow, kindof found out tat kids nowadays are getting more n more extravagant life! Dun worry, im not going to complain or rant in this post (; I just simply felt tat bday parties could be so simple yet, sweet~~ Awww~~ (considering the family is rich lahx). Anw, prolly too much for a 4-year-old, but still sweet though. =D Its something i didnt have, couldnt have and never can have!! BUT BUt But But but... its a MUST have for my children in the future!! =DDD

2009-03-26T21:30:00.002+08:00

Woah woah woah!! Sooo much dust at my blog! LOLX. As expected le. haha.

Anw, its been real busy with sch stuffs, making me too busy to even tink wat to blog! BUT, everythings' gonna end soon, real real soon! ((((:

Errm, it might prolly have ended... for me.. Cos... i tink ive fail my SIP/MP! Surprised?!? Prolly u shld! Hw could such a HARDWORKING boy have failed rite??? All brag n shit =X HAHA. Anw, the real thing is i have not met the 75% requirement for 2nd quiz paper... awwww~~ Too bad, so sad... In a sense, I just dun like to have 2 wings n fly among the clouds...

Oh, another thing. Actually the idea of ending tis blog came to my mind these past weeks. Dont really noe wats the reason behind it but it just suddenly came off after i changed tat skin n song! Emo skin + a not-so-emo song dun really contrast but.. its my blog afterall!! Who cares! HAHA.

I m 胆小鬼! Yeshh!! =P

2009-01-28T17:26:00.003+08:00

Hei Pi Niu Ear!!!!!!! =DDD

Not the best Chu yi. Definitely. :(

But i fell in love!! With this song, instantly!

We are drifting apart. I felt so.

我该怎么爱你 , 我沉默且小心翼翼

2009-01-07T23:57:00.009+08:00

Aerospace is == hack-sawing, filing, drillinggg blah blah blah shit. Kind-of lame. Yeah, kind-of...

First day in the workshop! means i can Eelac-oonne-cooornerr n update!! =DD

Final days of 2-0-0-8!

Santa 's gift was... a bag full of nonsense!!

"Xi gua tian bu tian?? Tiannn!!" =)

Stunts frm the movies? We're the best dude!

Ps: stunts frm brokeback moutain? Not included. Thx.

Too much of IP Man! =X Oh, n side effects of the booze. Haha. Ooopx

Black Ranger had too much tat day n landed up in kbox! When u drink.. dont FLY! HAHA

Dont u eva belittle tis game ehh! Cos tat's wat kept 4 idiots busy frm 5pm to 2.45AM on NY Eve!! E2Max at Cine L9, must try!!

We r "Sisters" hor?? Hmmm~~ Tao yan~~ Muahahaha!!

And hw could i eva forget abt them! Awww~~ =DD

*YawnzzZ* When uve gt to go, uve to go... Gotta apply some antiseptic cream on the wound. Oooo.. my precious left palm... I still have a future on my Yeh-Ma-Har Ar-Ler 6 (if u can decipher) Haha!

2009-01-06T00:53:00.002+08:00

Dwell Time, a new technical term learnt.

Yes, so many times, i've been dwelling, persistent on some things. Think its time to kind-of move on to the next chapter. I'm not dying, i'm not old BUT i'm not young either. Vol. 1 of my story had been dramatic, action packed n prolly a joke? But lets keep vol. 2 in suspense.. n mayb a lil' bit essence of romance..

Endure hanging on the edge doesn't really shows a thing, climb up.

2008-12-15T23:40:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, some ppl(name/s nt gg to be mentioned, so dun ask) says bike is cheap( not in pricing wise), its for poor folks n for ah bengs. Oh pls oh pls OMGZ, it just shows tat ur brain is obese dude! So wat makes u tink a class 3 license n four wheels shows ur an high class society scum!? Haha. Sorry tat im rude. But i have class 3 licence too! Surprisinly, i dun feel im like a big F.

And i suddenly remembered a fren once wrote in the blog: dun ever criticise someones hobby even if u tink its stupid, not worth or wateva shit. Nw i find hw true it is!!

I just dun understand y there r idiots who r trying to spite me n demoralise me! Cos it seems to me tat u r just trying to save ur own face by saying hw bad others r! In fact, hw gd r u???

Bring me out of my Twilight Zone. Take me to that Dimension. Save me.

2008-12-11T18:29:00.003+08:00

Sorry guys~ I lied.... Cos my test date is today!!! Muahahaha!!

But of course. 烈火戰車 part 1 is back! hahahaha!

Here's the verdict:

Class 3 is done. Class 2B is done. Hmm, 11/12/09, class 2A here i come! Shiok ar!!

Oh, btw, Honda Fireblade riders r most friendly!! Cheers mate =D

2008-12-02T21:30:00.004+08:00

Almost been a yr since i started to blog! It means....... my 1st Anniversary with my dear~~~ DEVILS BEND! Muahahaha!!

And guess wat?? Its bout time to challenge you again yea. Same time, same place but on 2 wheels though. haha. Ohhh, n a maximum of onli 200cc huh.

IM BACK

2008-11-14T04:07:00.005+08:00

*Finally!*
Into the last phase of my job!! Sunday, I really hope it will be... Change of job, environment n wadever might be real refreshing for me ba! :D Unfortunately, alot of customers will miss my wonderful service n ma sweet smile!! Muahahaha!!! Shameless~ i noe~ hehe

*GAYED*
Eeeewwww.... but i still must blog this out. Was having lunch with my dear buddy(jian wu) during work today, n theres somebody which inevitably caught our eye. And this piece of shit almost made both of us puked! shit! Okie, there was tis "肌肉男" C~~at-~~walking along the streets of marine parade n somehow i took a quick glance at him( oh ya, he's a really big piece of shit to be unnoticed). Den he gave us a faint gay smile OMGZ!! Of cos i turned away almost immediately... Good! but nt enuff!! Cos the next second, he was like trying to get so close to our table while puffing his stick of malboro as if he nvr puffed b4! And so coincidentally.... we were talking abt hw these "incredible hulk disciples" went off the "track" n stuffs... Oh dear, the best part came! He came asking to share the table with us sia! Tis idiot was trying to unleash all his gayish look at us lah! Bluehhhhhhhhhh~ pui!! Aite, sharing table may seem nth wrong but..... when the tables around us is absolutely empty n available, its definitely DISASTROUS! n den......................................................

Of cos is run lah!! Wait for him to gay with us meh! Siao!

*Girl*
2 new colleagues at Isetan Katong. Jamie n Priscilla. But pris is the one tat caught my eye.

Our dialogue:
Pris: Hey, U frm wat sch ar?
Me: TP loh.
Pris: U gt girlfriend?
Me:*Snooked* Hmmm, nope.
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Who the hell will ask u gt gf anot in the 2nd question? LMAO! . . . . . .
But she's cute. Sweet 17~ I will remember her. Hahaha

Ay ay ayyy, time for chinese songs again~

2008-11-06T00:42:00.004+08:00

Its so rare tat i update within such a short period huh. So, hmmm... okie, another girl came n ask for my hp no. again... As usual, i gave. Surprisingly, i haven even seen her b4!! Lolx! ( FYI: her colleague came n asked on her behalf). And UNSURPRISINGLY, she turned out to be as crazy as the first girl. Bcos, as i was abt to publish tis post, her msg fully flooded my inbox with all those "darling","darlz","muacksz"... Halo~ I dun tink we have reached tat kind of stage where we can call each other as flings. I dun mean to be rude but seriously, i wont call a girl my darl unless she really is.. OR she is someone who noes the way hw i jk around with her. So, pls pls pls... U r makin me feel awkward to reply ur SMSs. It wasnt like tis ytd when u 1st msg. Wat came over u??

Hi Jo!! Nice to know u! haha. Rmb, "bu yao Sianz Sianz leh"~ Cheer up yea?

2008-11-01T23:07:00.002+08:00

Im so sorry.. I just felt like a real ass-shity guy ba... Know tat u might not be reading tis( tink u didnt even noe im typing tis ba), just wanna let u noe something... Cos i gave u my phone number but i hope ive nt given u a wrong idea. In anyways, im so sorry if im a little cold towards u. Cos seriously, i dont know wat u've been telling the other colleagues but, im feeling abit awkward.. really... I really do hope u can stop some of the funny actions u've been doing ba..

Anw, Starbucks seems to be my second home recently!!! Hahahaha! Cos i really do enjoy tat kind of moment there... No matter with which group of ppl, tat feeling is always so great there! haha!

Been slpin late n wakin up early but I DONT MIND! =DD Spending time, catching up with the ppl is always something worthwhile!!!

Oh ya, theres 2 person who knew too much of my secrets hor?? Lolx!!

2008-10-17T09:15:00.003+08:00

Bzzz bzzz bZZZ~~ As busy as a bee!( i always do) haha! So much things to blog yet so little time.... Hmm, so i shall do it in point form!

- Approached by the modelling company "Create Talents" AGAIN. Diaoz.. Same location, same time, same person tat approached me b4.... sounds kind of idiotic?

-Thousands of Thx to Freddy!! Really thx for tat 2 days job! Might be tiring, hot, dirty, disgusted( by the poops n pee of those little "CHARCOALS"), but most imptly, its damn fun!! Working with super close buddies is always fun isn't it. Well, i supposed. HAHA! Anw, anyone who is reading tis can help me sent my thx to freddy? Thx alot yea =D

Ps: im not working as a cleaner....

- Caramel Macchiato with fantastic ppl! Quality time. Splendid!

In the midst of catching the last train

Finale, just wanna intro my blog song to u ppl(if u haven heard it b4). Dont get turned off by the instrumental start cos its a rnb! Tis song is just so S to the E to the X to the Y!!!!!!

Jay Sean - Ride it.

2008-09-22T13:02:00.005+08:00

Looking at the time... its 7.50. Nothing special though. But theres tis unsettled feeling inside me right now. Its tat kind of topsy-turvy which keeps on revolving, thus urging me to do my rant out here.

A letter was sent frm TP few days back. Well, its abt the aerospace thingy n its addressed to my parents. Surprisingly, tis unimpt piece of letter is the source of my emo-ness. Ok, i dont mean to brag here, still, the fact tat tis course is something tat so many others dreamt of, is an undenialble truth. Thanks to my luck tat im being chosen, the least i would say.

But wat good is it, when u dont get tat kind of appraisal or pat on back which u deserved??? Tat letter had been left on the table for god damn days, but ironically, its just turn out to a paper for rough uses. Lolx. I dun even noe whether i shld be laughin or cryin.... The value of tis info is even nth compared to those monthly-sent frm singtel.... wat a shame... haha.....
Maybe ive been watching too much drama. i dont noe. But since young, tat jealousy is so strong whenever i saw other kids being praised for things tat they have done well. To me, the kind of appraisal dun have to be a gift or even monetary wise. Just something as simple as "Well done, my boy" or things like tat would have really really melt my heart.

Maybe u'll say : u can share tis piece of news with ur frens ma. Okay, true enough. But u noe, the joy just cant be compared to those with ur family ( i guess so, cos i've nvr felt tat b4). Unsurprisingly, i've nvr felt regretful or pitiful cos i noe these things have been destined le ba. So, whenver i feel unfair or unregconized, i always imagine tat someday, i will shine! haha... Ya... someday.. Though i dun really noe when, but, it will!!! Im sure.

Anw, theres something i wanna let anyone tats reading tis blog to noe. The aim of my blog just a place for me to pour out the rage in me, not to gain the sympathy of anybody. The reason im not sharing it during meet-outs is i dun bear to let my own fucking problems spoil the mood of everyone.

2008-09-22T13:02:00.002+08:00

Recieved a call ytd! And guess wat? Its the modelling agency tat approached me abt 3 weeks ago n they wan me go for the interview today Hahaha!

Recalling tat scene was a real comedy lah! Was rushing to my work place cos im damn late already. And with tat pace im walking, i really couldnt notice who's around me or watsoever.. And then.... there's someone who caught me by my hand n when i turned around.... Wow!! Tis sweet looking lady was trying to approach me with her (er hmm,) atrocious english =( .... Being mesmerised by her looks, seriously, i wasnt really listening to watever shit she has to say. But still, i managed to hear tat she's frm tis modelling company "Create Talents", saying i've gt the potential.. blah blah blah....

For tat moment, i tot... " wow, i've gt the looks", but come to the tink of it, she just wants some bloody fools to go for the portfolio shootout n pay tat few hundred bucks n her commision-based will just go boom boom boom!! Im not tat kind of fool~ hahaha! Anw, i still gave her my contacts... u noe, man just cant resist the charms of the beauty. hehe =)

2008-09-17T17:41:00.007+08:00

Time to do some spring cleaning!!! Since theres tis person who says its collecting dust here..... shit~ hahahah

Alrite, 1st thing to address...

I love this ppl!!! Gonna mizz u guys so so sooooo much~~~

Part 2,

All the best to Heng n Anson!! Take care guys! =) Go Diver goooooo~ hahaha

Finale,

Gpa dropped!!!! Muahahaha! 3.72 to 3.68

Networking Fundamentals A

Integrated Circuit Applications B+

Engineering Mathematics 3 A

Microcontroller Technology B

Telecommunication Principles A

Leadership & Character B

Off to get my lappie fixed!!! Ciaoz!

Coffee

2008-08-21T20:20:00.002+08:00

This song..... eases my ears, suits my feelings. Describes wat u like best, and of cos, is wat i liked too =)

Didn't really felt the kind of paranoic-exam-stress. I guess i've slacked way toooooo much. Gpa's gonna drop. I tink so.

2008-08-20T20:41:00.001+08:00

I would go all out to help my frens. I hope im not getting the wrong idea, i hope u too.

2008-08-16T17:36:00.002+08:00

Im soooo looking forward to 2012/13!! Becos i might be going Germany, Japan or Taiwan! Hahahah!

Attended the aerospace course briefing few weeks ago and found out that it actually sounds quite promising. They've actually planned to send us for further studies plus on-job-trainning at one of the three countries i've mentioned above. And i seriously think its gonna be wonderful! hehe. Studies and sight-seeing at the same time! Subsidized school fees and paid for the on-job-trainning! Weeeeeeeee~

But theres gonna be a downside of it ar.... its gonna be a lonoooonggg looooonnggg trip...... Just imagine spending 3 yrs in Germany, alone. Kaoz! Damn sad sia. And most likely there will be some sort of contract or bonding with the company there too. So, adding another 3 yrs, its like 6 yrs in Germany lah! Tink can migrate there liao sia.

Seriously, i've been thinking abt this issue for the past few weeks. For me, settling down other countries shldn't be a problem for me ba since i've been a lone ranger for 20 odd yrs already. moreover, theres really nothing i cant put dwn or leave behind, which is a bonus point to me le. Hmmm, but i oso cant say theres totally nothing too. Becos i have so many really wonderful brothers and frens here! We've been thru ups n dwns, thick n thin for so so so many yrs... How could i ever erase those memories man!!! So, dun worry! If that day really comes, im gonna seriously miss u ppl =)

(The following paragraph needs kind-of Parental Guidience... Heh heh heh...)
Btw, mayb i could find myself a german gf there. haha =P Not a bad idea rite~~ But, oso nt a very good idea lah. Wait they say we asians gt thumb-drive-size p***s. =X So, can consider Japan (av) or Taiwan (tai mei) liao. Wooooowwwww!!! Splendid!!! Ha ha ha ha ha.......

im going bonkers! im droolingg......

2008-07-31T20:48:00.002+08:00

Why that sudden change of attitude in you? Especially when its towards me...

2008-07-28T20:52:00.007+08:00

Felt rather ironic after reading Heng's recent post, making wanna laugh at my own foolishness

Sometimes i really ponder, why do i have to put my trust in a person who dun even derserve it? Lest expecting him to trust me.

Seriously, i've met some real bastards throughout my life... but nothing beats the ache in my heart when this betrayal comes from whom you thought is your mutual friend... Yet, what is the definition of betrayal to you ppl? Give urself some time to tink abt it. Is it monetary wise? Or did he arrow u?

Being an adult (or maybe u don't consider urself as one), u actually realized that not all things need to be done verbally. Fair enough, maybe u dont have that kind of mutual trust in me, but that doesn't give u the right to use my deepest secret as a tool for the flirtarious u! maybe u didn't realize, maybe this... maybe that.

Everytime i see u doing this, i just couldn't bring myself to utter another word. Not another word... That kind of embarrasment is really hard enough to knock me out in just one blow. Just imagine i'm doing the same thing to u... i guess u might already have treated me to a fist.

Deep down inside, both of us know that i'm not ur par in any terms. So, i don't know why u have to adopt this kind of underhand tricks. I really don't know.... maybe,maybe,maybe. maybe u feel threatened when i stay too close to ur flirting target, maybe u don't feel this way or maybe i do. Just a piece from my mind, given ur terms, u really don't have to feel this way.

The trust is gone. The borders between our friendship will just be another forever growing gap. It can't be mended. I'm sorry. I hope u are too...

And i just hoped that u would notice how i feel, or rather, just pay some attention to ur own actions ba.

Oh ya, i do have my confidants, my mutual buddies. So, i guess what i lack of.... is just a soulmate

2008-07-22T10:52:00.003+08:00

bday!! overdue.....

caramel machhiato? new love? HAHA

Who's that girl~~~ lalalalala~~~

*interrogated & motivated*

2008-06-24T19:11:00.002+08:00

*Gu Wah Zai*

Seriously, i dunno wats so special abt this photo. But, damn, at least 2 or more persons have been viewing it recently! Thats why i've decided to put it here! =))) Anyway, to match his classic photo, we need a retro song~

I miss Justin's queaky-tweaky voice

-=I'm stepping into the 2nd decade=-

2008-06-15T20:55:00.002+08:00

nice shows... must watch... HAHA

Iron Panda
KungFu Man
The chronicles of the Hulk
The Incredible Narnia

sorry.... lame + bored = nonsense

2008-06-12T15:11:00.003+08:00

1 - is the number of watermelon i ate (ermm, i mean the whole thing.... *Burpx*)
2 - is the number of bloody fools going for NS tmr HAHAHA
6.30am - is the time i reached home today
11.30am - is the time i woke up
BUT...... 20 is the number of fucking-salty-spicy-plus not nice fishballs i ~~ate~~ forced to eat ytd!!! I swore not to play "five-ten" NEVER EVER AGAIN!

Notes: Good luck to sleepy-head n kuku! OCS! Commando! Chiong ar~~~~
K-Box fishball really not nice sia.....
20 in 12... Nooooooo

2008-06-04T19:06:00.001+08:00

20 in 20!!!

2008-05-23T19:58:00.003+08:00

5 star's eight course dinner. What's on the menu? Fried rice (Chef Keat), steam eggs(Chef Guan), sambal squid(Chef Kok), lemon chicken(Chef Anson), veggie in oyster sauce(Chef Hong), curry chicken(Chef LoLo), stewed pork(Chef Heng) and finally, the best dish is none-the-less, sweet n sour pork by Chef Wilson lah!!! LOLX

Nice job ppl!!!!

Btw, that hand (top right hand corner of pic) is realli kind of obscene... HAHA.

*Men Can Cook*

2008-05-16T19:19:00.000+08:00

Found this song while searching for a movie =)

2008-05-08T00:36:00.008+08:00

Vramm Bramm bam bam baam baaaammm!!! Listen to the sound~~~ of the Honda CBR 150R... Nah~ I dun even how know its sounds Haha. Anyway, i'm real keen in getting my hands on those cbr or sp. So, i've enrolled myself for bike lessons... today! I'm broadcasting it here because i dun wanna hear stuffs like "Wah, wilson wanna keep secret loh, dun wan tell us loh......". And my dear wee kiat n guan rui, pls dun say i nvr give signal hor! (ever since i started driving, i dun use the signal de loh! Oopx =P )

Actually, I do know that i will be creating quite an uprise over here. I can see some of the faces(You! Yes, you! The one reading right now! *Waving vigorously*) frowning, trying to giggle abit, thinking of what the hell is wilson doing. Didn't he say he wanted to clear the "debts" first? Then where the hell is he going to find the money to take up the lessons or buy the bike? Dun worry, as i have already anticipated these questions before they are being asked. So, i'm gonna make some declarations. First things 1st, if i'm gonna get the bike, of cos that means i wont be clearing my debts so soon! I'm breaking the promise that i made it earlier, but i dun see that i'm the only one doing it, everyone else doing it too! I'm not perfect, but who is?? Whats the real deal behind for being such an "upright" person, since its money that they are after?

Secondly, i just need a real damn transport because i too sick and tired of walking to n fro school with my sleepy eyes. And damn the fucking hot weather!

Hey hey! Dun close this tab just yet! I'm not done with it. Just abit of randomness(sounds like typical ah girl right? eeeee~~), to continue from "I'm not perfect, but who is" which i have bolded it earlier. Hmm, just wanna voice out that i'm really not a perfect person, friend, student, or even a lover. And guess what, i'm not gonna become any of those too! Even in the future. Because i am me, myself and i. I dun have to be your dreams, wish or even your fantasy! If i have to change myself due to others pin-pointing, then i'm just like a plain piece of paper being filled up randomly by other ppl....

At times, i may be sitting at the lecture theatre by the corner, at the back of the lorry, all alone. Pls pls pls do not be surprised, excited or start wondering what is happening to me, because i really need to wander into my own twilight zone. I just feel so remorseful for having such a bad past. Wasting my time, youth and some other things that everyone could only have it once in a lifetime.... all during the seconday school days. Up til today, the devil inside me, is still trying to turn back the time and tempt me back to the old days. Although i may seem invulnerable, no matter how well i've tried to made up in terms of academically, physically and my character, none of these are enough to erase those bad memories.

Being everything to everyone elses, is actually being nothing to yourself

2008-04-25T21:45:00.002+08:00

Judge :"Do you admit guilty?"

Man :"Yes, Sir."

Judge :"Alright, I hereby announce, under the first chapter of the Law of Friendship, Wilson Tan is found... Guilty!"

Yes, I'm just so indecisive all the time. I'm so sorry, ppl. I just can't runaway from the guilt in me and thats the reason why i'm so moody during lesson time. So, i guess i'm gonna hate MCT lessons.

2008-04-22T02:19:00.005+08:00

Just what am i doing at this time of the day man? I've still got classes starting at 8am tmr?!?

Hmm, jealousy, envy, rage, or whatever is really getting all over me now. Watching ppl around me getting cars, bikes, going to wherever they wan, doing whatever they wanna do.... I feel like I've just finished downing a glass of neat vinegar (so sour sia). Stuck in this little place at home, controlled by the "powerful monarchy" system. Sounds like world war 2? Yes! everyday's like a battle to me. Ah~ i've gotta stop these grandmama stories before anyone starts yawning.

Just call me Mr Vain. Cos i'm just too vain...

Oh ya, half of the class is just so anti-social( note: the other half are all my kakis =D ) Let's hope it gets better tmr!

Lastly, I've reserved this special place for all of you guys. Sooo nice~~~

2008-04-14T16:01:00.004+08:00

Wow!!! Its been more than month since my last post. All thanks to the tedious stuff at my workplace, draining every tiny-winy bit of my energy. But today... I'm Recharged!!!

Alright firstly, last saturday is my last day at takashimaya (hopefully), so thats the main reason I'm feeling sooooo goooooddd~ Seriously, I'm just sick of this job already. Forcing myself to smile at those people(who actually make me feel im smiling or greeting to that enormous block of wall in front of me), hey, just get the fuck out of my sight. True enough, i can see why "you people" from "certain countries" are so blacklisted by all promoters on the sales floor. You people just have to change ur bloody attitude and stop ranting, criticisng or questioning the promoters over nothing. Whats makes you think that pulling the Agnes B dress over you, carrying that LV handbag(small one) and slipping on that pair of Ferragamo shoes really gives you that big fuck look. Hey big fuck, face the mirror. You know what, you are just a piece of shit being wrapped beautifully with the finest wrapping paper and garnished with that cute little ribbon. Where's the inner beauty of you? Oh btw, some of you really smells~ (no joke) Eeeeewww~ :-o... puke

Secondly, i would relate this coming paragraph to Wang's blog( i have already read it twice). Ermm, about the not-so-happy-birthday, i really hope its not our side that you are mentioning. But in case its true, let me first apologize on the behalf of the St 11 people. Due to the time constrains of each n everyone, n my over-vomitting due to work( Read paragraph above), i have tried my best to synchronize the timing le. So, pardon me okie~ And from my point of view, i feel that there's no need for a big party with a large number of "whats-your-name-again?" people. Because i believe those who cared for you and each other, are already present that day. Those who can't make it there have already send it their regards n apologies. Until here, i would like to show off abit of my comprehension skills. Oopx. From the clues given in ur blog, i'm 99% confident that its not our side that ur mentioning because 1. You weren't playing dota that day 2. We didn't give you any presents( its our pratice in st 11, not stingy okie) 3. Darren, Hong Boon or whosoever weren't present that day either. 4. We didn't have a bloody booze night (line 23 of Wang's blog) Did I get this right?
Cheers mate!!!

Finally, back to myself. Hmm, quite happy that i've got 3 A's n 3 B+'s for my exam. Gpa gone up to 3.71, bla bla bla... And as usual, nobody's gonna get happy for me except for myself. Just hope to get into that Aerospace Electronics n give my future a boost alrite.

Oh ya, Windie, who are you sia? dun come and go like wind leh. At least please select one lah Mr/Mrs/Mdm/Miss.

Anyway, i shall wish myself good luck n all the best to my future endeavours n the upcoming semester!!

I'm gonna get somethings for myself!! Tata~

2008-03-12T13:45:00.005+08:00

Its OFF DAY!!! Hahaha. Finally can get some decent rest le and thats why i got some time to blog here. So happy that work is quite smooth sailing for me. And the people there are nice too =) Joking around with them just lifts up my sullen working mood and their secondary-school- stories just remind me of the old days lah.... Those were the days man..... But so sad that most of you are going for a long holiday before the school starts. Anyway, good luck to you ppl for the upcoming poly life!

These 2 weeks are also really my spending weeks Hehe. I got myself perfume and a set of 2.1 speakers!!

Escada Sentiment

Klipsch

Boom BooM BOOM!! SHIOK ARHHHHH!!!!!

2008-02-29T12:20:00.002+08:00

Went to pasir ris park with Hao, Ben, Mich, Cloudy, Joe and gf yesterday for cycling and blading session! Watching some of them blading is damn fun man. You get to see them with all sorts of funny posture n positions while they blade, not forgetting the falls too lolx. But what i can say is, you ppl are so clever lah. Manage to pick up the blading skill in such a short time. If i learn blading, i think im gonna take years sia..

As for me, im gonna stick to one of my all time favourites lah. Cycling!! Its really been a long time since i cycled already. Though pasir ris park is slightly too small for me, but i still manage to do something quite challenging. hahaha. The rain yesterday somehow spoilt my mood because it made me drenched for 2 times in a day!!

But the sight under the shelter was really interesting !!! Whahahaha!!!

2008-02-27T23:01:00.002+08:00

Finally, it's over............ but other plans and unfinished jobs are still waiting for me.... i just have to hang on.

2008-02-13T20:49:00.002+08:00

Time is just like never enough lah. So many sleepless nights for the past 2 weeks, finishing off projects and finishing other ppl's unfinished projects. Let me you, that feeling jus SUX big time!!
Just imagine staying up the whole night, doing the reports and presentation slides where your so called "team mates" should have completed them and send it to you. But you end up waiting the doing them and editing them. Hey people, if you don't wanna do it,just simply tell me okie... what's the point of filling up blanks and sending it to me at 2am in the morning when the deadline is just only few hours away. Please don't act like you've also done your part. You are just one of a kind.

Wee~ counting down to the first battle next friday! To all "soldiers" going for the battle : JiaYou JiaYou JiaYou!!!!!!!!! Hope to see all of you in the same class again =)

Btw, i'm going back to Guess. Most probably at Takashimaya ba.

Ohhh... you touch my ta-la-la~~~~

2008-02-03T21:59:00.000+08:00

Cheers~

Supersize me.

Im back from malaysia's *Big Horse Garden* (direct translation)

2008-01-30T22:02:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy!!! why? Because i'm in the top 25 percent of ite graduates. Guess what? An extra 400 bucks for me to spend!!! Yeahz~~~ I never thought i could have it because im studying in poly already. But since the government is sooo generous, its hard to turn them down noe.... Hahahah! I wonder if the rest of ite classmates also have it. Anyway, i miss you guyz =)

Just recieve a msg from Heng, saying that recently theres another accident at devils bend and theres 2 dead n 2 injured. Its just about the same case as mine. Same place, same amount of passengers and i guess its gonna be the same spot too. Haiz... regretted that im so hot-headed at that point of time. Trying to pull of stunts. I admit, in my mind, the only thing is the catch up with the car in front without realising that im carrying another 3 frens and its only the second time i've driven past there....

To anybody who might come across this blog, please DON'T go so fast at the sharpest bend there. Its really much more sharper than you might expect. DON'T ever think you are living in Need For Speed Underground, because theres no restart option in real life..... remember~

I'm trying my best to look forward in my life

2008-01-24T19:49:00.000+08:00

Life's really damn unexpected. Its just too sudden for me accept the fact that guan rui's dad parted this world yesterday. When i recieved the news, my heart really dropped. I cant imagine that person whom i saw a few days ago, sitting at the coffeeshop and watching tv, is just gone like that. That kind of feeling is really indescribable. I think most of us must have felt this too.

Whenever a friend's relative pass away, i can always recall the day that my dearest grandmother left this world. Because it happen on last day of my o level paper and its also the first time i really cried. She's really the one who treated me so well when she was alive. She would bias towards me, and my angbao during the new year is definitely the biggest amoung all my cousins. But its a sad thing that such a wonderful person left this world, in the hospital.... in pain. And how can i ever forget the drama which my uncles and aunties starred in during the wake. Fighting over the tiny-winy bit of money that she left behind?!?! WTF. You people are her very own sons and daughters sia. Is that how the elders should behave in front of all the nephews n nieces? I guess my grandmother's tears must have flooded her coffin. Her mind must be thinking that she shouldn't even leave the money for us ba. I just cant hold my inevitable tears during the rituals and even before the lifting of the coffin. Every word or song which the toaists sung, its just so heart piercing and my heart is throbbing with pain. Once again, my tears rolled down. This story sounds dramatic?? Its true damn fucking true man~ Even i also cant believe it.....

Btw, o level results out today. Overheard that Rai's bf didn't do quite well. Hmmm, wat i can say is dun worry man! Theres always a second chance. I fail my o levels too n i didn't even go for a retake. Maybe ITE is not a bad choice after all. I made my way from there too! So, to all ppl who didn't do well, dun despair dude!! =)

Out to guan's dad wake-

Sadz

2008-01-21T21:33:00.000+08:00

This post here is dedicated to our dear bro Guan Rui. I know your dad is in the hospital right now, but for anything that comes better or worse, just dun too worry okie. Worrying too much at this point of time really won't bring us anywhere, so lets just pray hard that he will get better=)
If you need someone to talk to, just feel free to call me. I might not be a good talker but i guess im quite a good listener ba. Letting it out is always better then keeping it inside.

To all frens out there, if theres anything thats really bothering you, just dun keep it to urself. Share it with ur close friends, call them up or just leave them a msg, because i believe they are always the best listeners.

Life's like a box of chocolate (the assorted flavours wan). Because the next one you pick might be a nice nutty wan or might be a fruity wan which sux big time!

Out to study my com prog quiz-

Cocktails

2008-01-17T18:28:00.000+08:00

Im getting fatter n fatter! Just realised that i actually spent an average of 2 hours going out for supper! Oopx. But i doubt im going to cut down on these.. hehe.

Felt so relaxed after knowing my computer programming is already done =) Magical!!!! Wahahaha!! Its gonna be a "Ctrl c and Ctrl v" session for me liao. So, many thanx to Miss Wu Qian~ And, it means i have extra time to satisfy my recent crave for Cocktails!!! YeaH~~~
pm me if you also have the crave. St 11 bros n A715 ppl are most welcomed. Especially girls =) Lolx

Show me tha money

Out-

2008-01-11T18:08:00.000+08:00

Psps lesson was definitely fun again yesterday, always full of noise and laughter!!! Owe it to our Mr BJ~ even our lecturer also suan him till jialat jialat Lolx. The lesson was so fun until the part when we were asked "What is important n urgent in life?". The answer were supposed to be family n studies, instead of cars, girls etc. Sad to say, i couldn't agree to the part that "family do things for you... ... blah blah blah." and i guess u ppl know why ba. Once again, the fucked up-shit-emo-feeling appeared on my face. Im not sure if any of my classmates saw that (shame shame).

Up to this point, you might ask me "Dont think abt wat they do for u, think abt wat u do for them." But hw many of u noe that my status in this family is as lowly as a maid. Everything little thing that i want, have to be earned by doing shit chores n run errands for them. The most used dialogue by them is "Do this thing for me 1st, come back den say" WTF.
And hw many of u actually know that i dont even have a room to myself (except for chung fatt) I still can remember hw surprised he looked when he learned abt it today.

Oh ya, btw, i sleep in the living room =) I guess u ppl must have envy me for having such a "Big room" to myself haha. Sorry for being sacarstic.

Runaway Love. Hell is a place called home.

Take the Lead.

2008-01-08T23:21:00.000+08:00

Dfund 2 result's back. Only 37/50, comparing with last semester's result, its really a big drop. Dont tink i can get good results in this sem ba. Looks like my chances of getting into Aerospace Electronics is getting slimmer le. Maybe i should be contented for getting this far.

Really wanted to thank my ITE teachers for not giving up on us. Its just like how the Antonio Banderas in "Take the Lead" does. He changed the lifes of those society scums, and help them get back on their feet. Maybe ite should consider showing this movie to the students ba, its really inspiring! and of course, the songs n dances are nice too!!

Sasha is Gorgeous~~~~ hehehe

Fun!!!

2008-01-01T18:52:00.000+08:00

Thanks to ST 11 bros n many others! Really had alot of fun last week... and especially on sunday!!! I cant believe that we went out from 9pm to 7am even though our lessons are going to start at 9am. This is our program for that day : dinner at bedok 511 - bowling at safra - rochor "dao huay" at geylang - pool session at katong - supper at ecp mac - loyang tua pek kong. Definitely fun!!! I asked for a lot but somehow i cant get an answer. Maybe tua pek kong dun want me to decide so soon ba.

And to Bing wang n Hong you, although u all are having problems ur gfs right now, but i hope everything will turn out fine for both of u. Because i know u guys are ppl who will cherish relationships de =)

Term test results are back ytd. Edevice - 49/50. Emaths 2 - 71/100.

Finally, its 2008 ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Round 2!

2007-12-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

Went for my favourite sport's trainning on friday nite. Its been almost 3 yrs since i picked up tis sport. I can still recall the intense trainning n atmosphere at HillTop, where u actually feel the adrenaline rush when being trained by Master Johnny. Though friday's trainning is much more relaxed compared to hilltop's wan, but the one yr gap realli proved too great for me. Trained with Ah Heng, Kenny (Terry's bro) n a few others tat day, n watched Heng's friendly spar with the other guy. Wat i can say is, tat guy is really too easy for Heng le ba. He was capitalised totally. Well, i had mine with Kenny. But i really lost my basic moves n touches. I guess i wasn't up to his match yet ba.

After trainning, i tot i could have a good rest b4 i go for my work the next morning, but b4 i realise, i had my Round 2 already! Woken up by mum at 0745. The reason? All because of the steering wheel n seat belt cover tat i didnt take back!?!? But wat really upsets me is the attitude u ppl treat me. Nw, in mum's eyes, im labelled "not repented", "ungrateful", "not understanding" all these shit. Do u know hw heartbreaking it is when u r actually woken up frm slp by these words? Its definitely hurts more than being kicked n punched.

im Lazy bcos i left out tat 2 accessories? im Not Understanding bcos i didnt apologize? im Not Repented becos i dun seem to know i have made a heavenly mistake? But hw u ppl noe i've nvr tried when i've already done all i can?

Then hw abt the time when i cant get into poly? I wanted to look my 'mp' to write a letter of recommendation but u ppl tell me not to throw the family's face by using such methods. Then hw abt the time i wanted to sign on for Navy to sponsor the diploma? U ppl said tat i will surely fail my studies and have to suffer the consequences bcos of me. At those times, did u ppl give me support when i needed them?

The car's gone, but u have gotten a new wan. But i lost these opportunities n they wont come back.

Yes, im tinking very negatively. This is the way im brought up.

should i quit school?

2007-12-21T09:26:00.000+08:00

woken up by my mum at 0800, led me to alot of thoughts on quitting school.

the accident 2 weeks ago is going to be a good lesson for me. It didnt teach me how to speed nor going fast into corners BUT i saw hw people change. or should i say the real side of human being. right after the accident, u ppl didnt even care abt my well being. Instead, the first qns YOU asked me was "how's the car?", "how am i going to work, go gym, go tis go tat?". Yes, i know. SBS, Comfort, these are the options for the time being. But when i had to settle the things with the garage or the insurance, did u give me time? did u give me options? NO. all YOU did was keep pushing me to get the temporary car for u. Hello~ all tis things need black n white == hell lot of time. Do YOU noe i got alot of test tat week? Do YOU noe i cab dwn frm tampines to clementi everyday? my lesson end at 4, the garage closes at 5,
do have i a choice?

1 week later, when the insurance called n said tat they dun wan to repair the car, all u did was to rant at me n tell me to settle the bills. Do u really tink tat all these ranting, these questions can help me solve the problem? u keep asking me: 'hw am i going take find all the money to settle the car?'. I really dun mind withdrawing all my money, its all i can do. But wat abt YOU? This is ur car. And u didnt even put in effort to tink of a solution?!?! WTF. Once again, ur sms keeps coming in. The stress tat u r giving me is really unbearable.
Wat do u wan me to do?

I wanted to Apologize but the attidude u gave me is holding me back.

Retribution? Maybe. To tink tat we didnt even send tat old man to hospital on tat very day, it really seems tat its been shown on us. We seem unfilial. But does he deserve use tat word to describe us? i can still recall all the things he didnt do for us. He didnt bring us up. Neither did he bring us out to have fun nor taking care of us. I can still recall hw cruel he can be when he refuse to bring me the doctor when i broke my ankle in Primary 2. The best part is, his reason was so short n sweet, simply "cannot! I meet my fren go fishing liao!". Fuck u bodoh! If u tink tat fren is so impt, den why did u start a family in the 1st place!

Under these circumstances, quitting school n work full time seems bright for me. And i can support myself too. (So YOU can ENJOY the car at ease without having to worry abt feeding the handicapped, useless old man.) Since YOU tink tat YOU need the car to go gym or go out with ur frens is soooo important, den i guess i will quit school before the main exams ba. And i can support myself too. At least i dun have to go thru another stressfull period. Anyway, my GPA is onli 3.61, comparing to most of my classmates, im onli a average student. Or worse to say, maybe TP dun even wan me inside there.

After the term test, i really dunno why this feeling inside me is getting stronger n stronger. Maybe is the things YOU told mum ba. Sorry folks, i wun be mentioning wat is it but it is also the reason my mum woke me up n started tis entry.

St 11 brothers, TP frens, ITE frens n teachers, or simply just anyone, i really need opinions n views frm u guys n gals.

Before i end, i still remember tat morning u msg me tat i hurt u so much becos broke the "Love of ur life". Let me tell u, the Fucking attitude tat this whole family is giving me, really broke my heart thoroughly.

我的心真的受伤了